Life Thoughts Lately
I’ve been MIA from the blog world lately. Honestly, probably no one noticed, but I did. I felt hyper aware that I wasn’t putting up new posts. I’ve given myself some grace for that, and to you, it may not be a big deal. But to me, it is. To me, this blog is a way to live out my purpose. A way to use the voice that God gave me. But I haven’t been speaking up. I could blame it on packing up my condo, moving to a new city, and settling in here. I could blame it on going to Ireland. I could blame it on the stress and busy-ness of life. But if I’m being honest with myself, it’s because I let the voices of fear and doubt triumph over the voices of truth and purpose.
I’ve had moments of utter discontent with the unknown of how my career will play out. While at the same time, moments of adventure and chaos and new friends and old friends have reminded me how good life can be. How good God is. How much I’m taken care of even if I don’t have everything figured out. Because who does have everything figured out?
Trust has been the theme for me lately. Trusting God. Why? Because no matter how much it looks like I have it all together on the outside, on the inside I truly have no idea what to do and where to go unless I listen for God’s voice. And lately I’ve been hearing two things:
I’m taking care of you.
Trust Me.
So what am I supposed to do with that? Live my life on purpose knowing that I have a purpose. Do the things in front of me. Put the condo on the market. Pray about where to move to. Look for a new house, in literally any city. Keep listening. Keep going. Go to the dog park and watch God put new friends there. Go to the new church and watch God show up big. Go to a new country and see how God gives good dreams to each of His kids. See, I may live alone, but I haven’t been alone the past few months. God’s been guiding me. I can make a long list of ways that God has showed up for me which builds the proof for the faith that He will continue to show up. Which keeps building my trust in God which keeps building peace. And peace is what I want. Not anxiety, not fear, not doubt. Peace even when the unknowns outweigh the knowns. Because God has me. Even when things don’t look the way I thought they would or think they should. I’m learning that His way is better. His way is kinder. His way is undeservingly good.
I don’t know what voices you’ve been listening to lately. But I want to remind you that you don’t have to listen to the fear and doubt, to the anger, or to the bitterness and hurt. You can listen to God’s voice of unconditional love. That’s why He came to earth. Because the voices of the enemy are inescapable without Him. He banishes those voices with His still, small whisper. The whisper that makes everything calm. The whisper that makes you remember to be still and know that He is God. Tune into that voice. It’s calling out to you.